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只有爱你的人会被你伤着

太阳不会因为你的失意,明天不再升起,月亮不会因为你的抱怨,今晚不再降降临;蒙住自己的眼睛,不等于世界就漆黑一团,蒙住别人的眼睛,不等于光明就属于自己。

青春就是用来追忆的,当你怀揣着它时,它一文不值,只有将它耗尽后,再回过头看,一切才有了意义--爱过我们的人和伤害过我们的人,都是我们存在的意义。

女人如花,花似梦

我有花一朵长在我心中,真情真爱无人懂遍地的野草已占满了山坡,孤芳自赏最心痛。

爱过知情重,醉过知酒浓,花开花谢终是空。缘份不停留,像春风来又走,女人如花花似梦。

Bishan pawning with xiao yue

月嫂即将离我们远去。心里总觉得百般焦炉,万分不舍。但天下无不散之筵席嘛。

So we met up with uncle ah zai, yue and zhen this evening at bishan park pawning and spend a good 3 hours together. I got a catching spee early into the game. The catch is almost when i drop the bait, the pawn will take it. So fast that i couldnt even sit my chair siol siol. By the time i caught my 4th, uncle then caught his number one.



The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog


Do you know why the quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog? It is because you want to check the keyboard.

This is a very interesting phrase indeed. And its commonly used around by user who wish to test the responsiveness of your keyboard. The phrase contain all 26 alphabet from the English letters. 

Interesting isn't it? 

Swimming at east coast

Yesterday was Extremely amazing night. I totally let me hair down and party all night long. Literally. And i did one of the most crazy thing in my life and that is to jump into east coast shoreline and swim with my shirt and jean. It is crazy and exciting experience of a life time. Now speaking of living life in the moment. :)

We went "red dot" to recce and then to "kiss" for 2 towers and then to "aura" for a tower and then to "gaga" for another tower. Its amazing how a couple of us can hold that much beer in stomach. Total of 4 tower. End up jumping in the sea for swimming. How? Crazy!! i am lucky i hadnt drown myself. It quite quite fun.

Till morning sent xiao yue home on ah zai's car. Dont know from where he pull out a mat to protect his car from our wet body. She suddenly wants to follow us for breakfast and to see if we still waiting for her, she come out of the apartment with towel only :p

She is such a sweet heart to hug me when she is dry and i am wet. I fell asleep on her shoulder cause i am super tired. She basically treat us all 猪杂汤 and fed me all the soup. Looking at the time its already 1030am in the morning so i had to leave for work.

Thanks to ah zai and yiwei, they had been a good friend recently that bring me out of my misery. I am a total relief. There will not be hate because they is no more love. There is only nothingness.

She is going back soon. Gonna miss her :/

Leave ur options open

The dark knight rises is a good movie although didnt make sense at the ending. All nolan movie didnt make sense. I lost myself yesterday night and found some interesting stuff laying around my house. A packet of opened ciggeratte with 20 sticks un smoked. A bottle of 驱风油 and a teeth bite on my arm. I love it when people appreciate my cooking although it is just instant noodle. I love the notion that girl offer to foot the bill although i insisted. There are still great girl around. 11th dec marks the end. A new chapter will unfold.

I didnt know i can still be attractive. I conceal my flamboyant side quite well these few years and all were not lost. I put on my cologne and spike my hair on ends and can still turn girl inside out. And i believe i am slowly recovering my confident, yes it does requires constant practice. These hormones excreted is contagious, it should shall flow through every cell and my collateral.

I realise spending money is a good feeling. I love to spend money still. While i quote myself, "money is wasted unless you spend it".

I realise i had been a good boy too long and this is what happen when a good guy turn bad. No one appreciate a good person. It is just ironic why people are just attracted to someone who dont give a damn.

Life is full of opportunities and around every corners so just leave your options open :)

I hate children and don't want any off spring

I grew more love towards my new tumblr blog, seem like I still consistently updating daily energy into it. Short, concise and simple.  And Ya, I cause updated a new template.

Talk about marriage. My parent weren't on good terms for so many years. It makes me crave to start a family early and invest my time and effort into a wholesome family. Think about going home every night with dinner ready and someone to hold up the family together and best with some children to mingle with my mother. That was how I visualize how I complete my life.

Since young, I thought ideally I should be married when I was 23. Then that was when my first GF broke off with me. My status was staying single for so many years. Then I thought ideally my age of marriage should be 25, and past 25 I was still single. I postponed to 28 that was when I had my second short lived relationship. Wasn't that attached to start a family then because I am still schooling and can't support myself. Moving on my next relationship lasted another 2 year plus. Still not ready and I am now 29. I totally given up on the ideal age of marriage. I decided to throw out and target to settle down at 35.

Some may think that it too old to start a family at 35. You know the children age gap thingy. It don't bother me however. Cause I do not want baby. Not assertively reject the ideal of baby but I am completely fine without one :)

Children you take care of them when they are small and expect them to in return take care of us when you are old. But now, who still care about their parent? Many ended up in the old folk. People are getting heartless. Assuming raising a children cost 100k. I see why not spent them with your partner to go travelling? Not bad right? Some more having a baby meaning diverting your attention away from your partner. Getting tired and importantly I hate children. By the way living in old folk is not a bad idea really. I would retired if my wife and go play around with other old folk while having people to take care of your needs. There are so many recreational activities in the home.

Do you agree with me???

Hugo boss after 10 years

Finally after 10 years, i get the favourite perfume of all time. I remember Eileen gave me one 50ml when i was like 19? Probably.

And funny that out of all the senses of our body, scent is the senses that our brain retain for the longest. And make a guess which one is the shortest?? Yes you are right! Sight is the shortest sense that our brain can remember. That is why sub consciously we had to read out the telephone number out loud because hearing is a longer sense than sight so we always use our hearing to help us remember the sight of the telephone numbers :)

So now, rather have to nicer smell and sexier voice because people will remember you longer using their scent and hearing. Now who say you have to dress to impress?

I will be dressing up and put on my favourite perfume to go turn on some ladies tonight.

P/s: remember to store your perfume away from heat source and store your perfume inside a closure to make it last longer without turning.

Mixed congee

It's sometime a mixed congee that brighten your day. It's sometime a tidying of room that touches the softness part of our heart. It doesn't have to to luxurious and complicated. Its the simple things.



Digestive 真好吃



I am addicted to digestive biscuit. Dip dip into 2 in 1 white coffee. And thats one meal. I ate it breakfast, lunch and dinner today.

Was planning to go out to relief from my stressful work but then laziness got into me and end up 百里 and 谁能 the whole day. Now jackson just tag fb me the show i watched before jn shen zhen 爱情保卫战. I think i will keep watching through the night.

Another sunday wasted -_-" still talking about success...

BUYINCASE is borned

BUYINCASE first time ever, revealing the back stage renovation and completion stage.


First its the sourcing of location, preferably with good human traffic, hence we decided on beside the 4D!


Second, do a wall floor renovation to lift up the shop brightly and clean. Move in all necessary furniture. 


Fill up shop with food and mobile phone!!


Next have to create a point of interest, led up with leon light for the excitement. 



Extend the product outside for shy customer


Be sure to keep within the yellow box


Last but not least, get the best service orientated saleman and you are good to go. 

These pictures spoke a thousand words and I had made it seem so easy. :)

11.11.12

I am feeling lousy recently. And now I am heart broken. I don't know how to put them in words but I can't bare to let go. However, I am grate that both of us is as happy as being separated which made me a wit bit grateful about that. Sometime its not about me and also not about you. That's that. Not suitable at the time of event, either me too old for that or she too young for it.

However, nutshell she is still a very nice lady. Good heart and simple. She should deserve someone better and she entitled more care and concern where others are able to provide. I should not strip her the chance to make mistake, to play, to mingle and to growth.


Me. I don't deserve anyone. "I don't play well with others" - Fear T shirt.


Destination or Journey?

I am exhausted. I am not as motivated as a few years ago. Life is so difficult and I am still not buckling up to face the world with relentless assault.

Sometime I ask myself. How to define success in life. I came across one old saying which I think still stand true. "Success is about the ability to do what you really want to do". Question is what do I want to do in life?

I was convinced that life was not about being successful but more about the experience you pick up in between journey. Sometime I think that life purpose is not all about taking but its about able to give. Money that you can earn to the point more than you need, you will still lose motivation all together.

But on the other hand, optimism and euphemism normally is the trait of loser. Sometime we had been lenient to our own life standard and when challenge came in front of us, we convince ourselves that we could live for something less.

I still wonder what is the true meaning of happiness and does success being one of the element? And then how to define successful in life. This might be a life long journey seeking the answer.

Wendy baconator burger

This week is all about watch hell's kitchen about 4 complete season.

Went out for basketball session and ending with 2 full meal upsize from Wendy's burger. Very nice.

KL trip

I haven't been blogging for so long, I almost forgotten my log in password. Phew... how long had I been gone? Now where do I start. See, I quitted Sembcorp, the company that had sponsored me my study. With gratitude but blessed that I am gone, for good. I commit to myself never to wear shirt and pants to work now. And yes, I am now comfortably dressed in my T-shirt, 3/4 pants and slippers to work. Ya I know, I do not have professionalism.

Family update now. Parent is going through the divorce and my dad is refusing to sign the fucking paper unless he is being given 50% share on the HDB flat which he did not even contributed in mortgage. My mum is responsible for the payment through CPF, he has the cheek to rip my mother's effort. Cold hard cash leh. Gold price on the rise and I lost my bag of gold in my house. I estimate that it worth at least a 8k now. Its gone and the culprit still on the wild. I really should not have let my guard down despite he had been gone for 6 months. The day he was back, goes my gold. Bravo. stupid me.

Mum got retrenched from her company and I had convinced her to run her shop as a mobile phone dealer. With absolute zero background and knowledge, she is receiving healthy profit first month into the business. Blessing here. See the nicely decorated shop in blue ocean theme.




See her big smile on the face. Priceless. On my to do list is to buy her a business and run her free time at shop managing the business, this is the closest I can get now. At least I am the one who help her set it up running.


For my business "BUYINCASE" its not doing too good. Due to poor location and lack for proper management. We are planning something ahead and I am confident to being it back to a shiny state of gold dropping tree. Not so good news, our branding website had been taken down due to similarity of another company named "INCASE" and they had patented the trademark. We had our reason and I am ready to fight and justify my case however due to lack of capital to engage legal assistant, I gave up the domain to them. 

Now I need a new company name, any idea??

Travelling oversea. Not so much except for one recent "NOT SO EXCITING" trip to KL. Some picture for the days before i close this entry. Enjoy.




84 Redhill Lane, mobile koisk

Blk 84 Redhill lane, my second mobile kiosk. Bittersweet. I finally managed to pull through with the tight budget and came up with something I am proud of. Me alone, against all odds, opinions, discrimination and disapproval finally I prove to human mankind to "think out of the box and do it on the spot".


Nobody say a mobile yellow box has to be in a box and no one say a hand phone shop have to have salesman standing behind a chest height cabinet. Constrain is good, constrain put people's brain to productivity and made efficiency. No one think this will work, will it?

Ewww. Two more days before my contract at Redhill starts. Deposite / Rental and Goodwill all paid up. License still outstanding and carpenter still have not yet engage. Bank almost overdrafted for month April. Too much had been spent on procuring new products.

 I need to watch out my account and project schedule. Really not suitable to become a PM. Super bue zai.

Gen Y vs Gen X

Gen Y really hard to manage. This is what I always told Mr Thiam about. "You just have to manage, these are Gen Y, a mind of their own".

I myself, claims that I am a cross bred between Gen X and Y. Like them I do not like to work, no responsibility for others responsibility. Always dream about passive income and absolute no loyalty and practical.

Till now, I just realize how hard it is to work with Gen Y people. When i recruit on classified, most gen y will just call in and interrogate me about pay scheme, welfare and benefits. They never thought of what they can offer into the business. Lousy standard really. I asked one of them, the reason to quit away previous job and they have the cheek to say because its boring. OMG.

Recruit one, character wise is okie, but do not have much initiative, not what I am looking in a good salesman and a good team player. Never to say my future partner that I can put my trust on. Quit after 2 weeks within less than 24hrs notice. Lousy.

New comer Sam, looks promising. Better, willingness to learn and also quite initiative. I see some light in him, might offer him to take up the redhill outlet in the near future. Pray that we can both work well with each other. :)

Impulse purchase Kia

I had so much to blog right now. Don't know what is the best way to list down. My Sembcorp renovation project almost done. I would want to dedicate one time good blog post for that.

BUYINCASE had been set up and running, would like to write that as well.

However today, I like to brag about my new impulse purchase. I brought an OPC car, yeah! I have been thrifty for too long, i should have pamper myself a little. People ask me the reason to buy a car, simply say its to motivate me to thrive to earn more and pay for my liabilities.

You were there for me

Very sad, it had ended. Sometime alone, i think about the past, where it begin. Bittersweet. I will never forget where it had all begin. I just want to remind myself of how it end. I cannot remember where it side traced, when? How? And why?

It just went bad. To a point where no matter how i try, it just cant go back to the path where we had begun. I can only tell myself to move on.

I remember your smell. I remember your cuddle and i will always remember how you had once love, care and concern about me.

Life will never be the same as if we had been together. The choice is made, the path had diverse and the fate had been pre destinated. I can't change how you had became but you can't change how you once was in the past. My girl. Once my girl. You will always have a place in my heart when no one can take you away. Love you once and always. May god bless you in everything. I will overcome. Time will heal.
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剩男28

As i am sitting at meiling coffee shop having 排骨饭加两粒蛋 by myself, the breeze was extremely chilling tonight. Finally i have some time sitting down, slow down and think.



Just watched the razor tv, the date loft, seeing the glamorous lady, an ex-pageant had been hunting very long for her happiness. She is coming to her late twenties. (28) Still so picky. Ya la. Its her whole life of happiness at stake. Cannot fault her for being careful right.

For girls, 25-27 you are yet to marry you are call 剩女. 28-32 you are middle class sheng called 剩斗士. From 32-36 you are dangerous already. They call you the high class sheng, 斗战剩佛 and  36 onward, the special class 齐天大剩 belong to you.

Sometime its wise to be cautious when choosing the right one. But don't be overly picky. That isn't the best one out there, only the most suitable one. Many a time, when finally u lose someone away and you will see it from her next relationship that you actually think why you didn't seize the chance and let it slip away.


分离其实比相遇容易。
相遇是十几亿人中的一次机遇,
分离是两个人的一次决定。
人总是这个样子的,
在伤心的时候要一个肩膀就够了,
可是在开心的时候却想拥抱全世界,
其实时间永远是悄悄地就偷走了你眼前的珍贵。
生命经不起等待,爱情也经不起错过。
我觉得财富和地位都不那么重要,
我要的爱情是永恒和绝对的忠诚,
你若不离不弃,我必生死相随。

2012 resolution & wishlist

The last day of 2011, and its time to set my resolution for the up coming year :)

Let's do a recap of the past 2 years and see what I did manage to achieve and what are the things that need catching up:

2009
comestically make over : Attempted in poly time, now revert back to old self
get grades enough for me to enter uni: Achieved the grade, (very good job)
quit smoking: Attempt a few time, quitted twice, once with Liwen and the other time in Bendigo
treasure the most important person in my live: Still didn't change much
socially more confidence and out going: Bad to worst
overcome stage fright: Joined Toastmaster and host Lilian's wedding dinner :)

2010 wishlist
Renovate my room: Not done
Buy a good bed frame and matress: Achieved
Second hand espresso machine: Achieved
Ceiling fan in room: Not done
Optional game console: Achieved
Nexus one mobile phone: No comment cause its optional

2011 no resolution

I reckon that I didn't follow much to my new year resolution but did manage to obtain quite a number on my wishlist. In my poly time, i was quite productive and achiever. After i start working, things completely changed. I felt I lost all my mojo, live is such boring and mundane. Nevertheless, setting resolution had became a routine so here it goes.

2012 resolution
Manage the admin renovation completely:
Joint venture into handphone counter before July:
Buyincase.com achieve 5k profit this year
Ebay shop need to set up properly:
Go dinner with colleague more often:
Treasure the most important person in my life and be more patience
Complete competent communicator project 10

Neo V camera and video sample : Break for lunch

Hi people. I will show case my new purchased phone Xperia Neo V's photo and video quality. However as this is my blog, I will not be writing the review so you have to take judgement for yourself:

New purchase: Curve 8520 :) (Macro mode with flash)
Auto mode without flash
Macro without flash
Recently heavy involved in the admin building renovation. Hmmm, technically I am the ID for this project :) First time working as a execution for project, super prefer this over engineering department. If I was here at the very first place, I might not have made up my mind to switch you know. Too bad.

Auto mode with flash

My humble little workstation, lappie.
Auto mode
Enjoyed myself at work most of the time, especially lunch time going out with all the old man and debate on pressing issue of Gen Y kids.

Video on auto mode

Recently just rained a lot

Game "Werewolf" at Batam Harris


Over the weekend when for a getaway at Batam with Hippocampus. I thought its was going to bore me to hell, turn out it was pretty fun. Probably again, those are all youngster and undergrad, by right should be more happening.

I reached on time while many other was late, there is problem at confirming the ticket as the queue was quite long. End up we missed the 840am ferry and had to take the 1015am one. Hence we lost the whole tour package itinerary. 


 Checked in to Harris and spent the day at Nagoya. Dinner at one of the street store and end up we the 18 pax made a bunch of orders.

if there is a right timing, its now

Everytime I tell my mum about my intention to venture into business, she never fails to pour an icy cold bucket of water down my head.


She will then list down a series of example how many of the people she knew failed in business, including the joint venture with my father year ago. Reassuring me that its very hard or impossible indeed to be sucessful. All the uncertainities, insecurity, time and efforts to be put in etc etc. She encourage me to stay one more year. People always waiting for the right timing to move. There is no right timing for me. Right time to do it, is to do it now.


But thanks for all of the people who puts me down and questioning my abilities. As a kid with rebellious nature, the more opposition voice I garner just add fuel to my passionate flame within my inner soul. Just like Naruto, the nine tail beast had been seal into my soul since young, and ready to offer me the unmatchable strength upon request.


Even geomancer said my life weights 3.7 ounce heavier, ie, they thought I just might not be fated to venture business but hell with it. I am going to try anyway, if I fail, I will borrow money from bank and retry. They say if you are still alive, you can always back trace your life. I had made a couple of wrong turns in life and while I still do not have much commitment, I can still afford to persue my dream and passions. Bup not for very long, I need to settle.


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Just when I thought admin building renovation is easy. Problems started to surface. I am bless with 3 on going project to keep my working hours occupied. On the weekend moon lighting with YS. As and when do some trading. My life is so full of myself right now. Oh ya, still that is toast master club and the SDN. Might wanna go join the party on 16th Dec :)


Batam trip soon, then follow by shen zhen trip and thailand trip. Or and Naruto and survivor and 百里挑一。good job, gary.


Probably going 东门 this week and hope can go skating on weekend.


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Really neglected the blog for like the pass one year. I felt miserable for failing to update my blog, which were once like a commitment I did weekly. Blame it on my work, nothing really interesting to blog nowaday. My phone had not been taking picture like they did last time. Actually my phone didn't take any photo at all.

I want to change another way of blogging. Don't want to post food and place anymore. Now I want it to be thoughts provoking entries.

Okie, update for my life. For past 3 months, I had been working hard at work, explored the option of entrepreneur with a join venture. Failed. Now trying to clear stock with buddy's help. Set up an online store.  Watch 百里挑一, 谁能,survivor season 23. Oh btw, I hope ozzy can win one time this round. Coach, suck balls.   

This 2 got together today, which I think is very fake. Don't know why. I think the guy is lame.

Toast Master Project 2: Organising your speech

I thought I am able to pull off the prepared speech unprepared. I was assuming I could flow out my presentation impromptu for project 2. Seem I had overestimated. In reality, my content flew left right center, all over the shop. Got myself a recorder standing of 36 false filler for the evening. I was so engrossed in my thoughts I didn't realise my time had exceed 7 minutes, and I was still carried on and on. Until the 3 repeated bells then I realised that I exceed the allowable timing by 1:42s.

Nevertheless, I am grate I went through, although I had to redo project 2. Thanks Sam, my mentor for the motivation. He's my role model sia, within 1 year already managed to attain ACB. Thanks Peter Lee was the motivational speech on "just do it", thanks Jimmy on the "pursue of happiness" that taught me the moment of life is to have fun at that moment, "Why So Serious".

If anyone interested to see my unfinished speech, that I brought up to stage on my Samsung I9000 screen:



Are they for real. It looks so easy.

Take a look at Richard, not being mean or anything, but kissing a girl like this. You must be kidding. Anyway, Richard happens to be my favorite geek for "Beauty and the Geek" Season 1. Oh, just so happen that I love Mindi too :) Her beauty isn't just skin deep, beyond her skin she is quite intellectual and composed. Is this world fair? Is smart and beautiful even legal together?

I am totally hook onto reality TV. Those who know me, knew. Survivor, Hell Kitchen, Amazing Race, Fear Factor, Beauty and the Geek. I mean my point is I am really into reality TV. So what so compelling for me to RTV. Okie. Just like what you can't get in your own reality, you would like to see others have it in their reality. So that it reminds us, life is not so damn hopeless. When I can point my finger at someone and say: "See, Richard that freak gets to make out with Mindi. So why not me?"

These little hopes keep life burning.

Pass my class 3, again

Super happy, i passed my class 3. Again. Haha. 4 demerit pts at parrarell and inapprocrate gear. Aiya nemind abput the mistake lah. Importantly, is the result and not the process mah.

Actually I am a very good driver minus again drink driving. I got class 3 in 2003 and since, been actively driving all sort of cars. In army. I drove the land rovers, MIni MP, 3 tons, 5 tons and lightstike. I hit my 10000km mark in ADF and converted to civillance licence. Personally i drove Honda civil 99. No only I had Class 2B and rided Wave, phathom and spark for 4 years.

Just wanna hao lian a bit. Thank ypu very much. Now getting my licence back, happy lo.