garynbcDiary · 日记

Lossing motivation in life but I can care less

I had been getting more and more difficult to be entertained by computer games. I really tried to buy and play those AAA titles. I bought Bulgar's gate 3 and really try to get entertained my the game but I get tired watching the stories and fell asleep so many times. After 6 months i still have difficulty completing the game. As I grew older, I get less interested in stuff, people, event, places and games. My only past time I enjoy is to indulce in youtube and wechat videos. Sucking my life aways minutes and hours away.

I lost motivation to earn money, work, build a business and basically not interested in doing anything at the moment. I used to love travel and now had been travelling for 2 years but I don't really like to explore anything as well. I just love to stay in a different city, without people knowing me and talking to me so I can stay in room for the whole day and watch youtube. I know this can be really unhealthy for me physically and mentally. I love to get out but having lack the motivation to do so. 

Is it something that worries me? The answer is NO. I believe there is a devine plan for me. I meant to do things that was planned for me just that I am still seeking what the thing is. Am I pessimisstic with life? No. I believe the life I had choosen is the best out of all narrative. If I were to die and ask a question will I live my life differently I believe I will say No. 

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Back Singapore for 1 week and we painted new paint for the room

Been back for one week already. We had just ended our 3 months travel to Hainan, Yuenan and Yunnan. I had so much video clip to backlog to upload to youtube. I was late to update these video due to no internet connection to youtube in China. 


Recently, Jackie found a great food or choice. We pick up the habbit to eat cold soba noodle in Japan. I love the noodle as it is chewy and use no oil in cooking. Soba has a lot of health benefit like high fiber and potein while lower in calories etc. And it helps in controlling blood sugar as it uses buckwheat flour. So we just get the soba noodle for $5 buck and the source for $5 which we can eat for 4 portions. So kinda simple lunch we can cook for ourselve.

Since back I had done some very important things at home. First is that my 2 years tenant Shakirah had moved out to Europe as her boss is not renewing the lease for the cafe business at Margrate drive. She left the room very dirty and we had be do a fresh paint job for the room. Painting is one of the most value of money renovation one can do to a unit. A white paint $75 for walls and $30 gross paint for the door will made the room return to the initial nice state.

这一次我们户外烧Trangia的还算是不错!煤气罐会比火水来烧得快。


We also uploaded our bilibili first video so that our friends in China are able to view our content. Ok lah. I will be busy playing my new game FF7 remake while see if i got time will push out my Kunming video soon. Meanwhile see our old short update: